February 07, 2009

Balls of Steel

Someday my soul may be free, but I do not see that day ever arriving. The more powerful I become, the more other powerful beings there are with which I have to contend. I fight you not because I want power or minions or hell, but because I wish to earn the right to die and I know you do have not the power to kill me. - Morgan'th, right before facing down Asmodeus

February 06, 2009

Author Note 4

Twins, with a special bond, of a fey race (read: not elves) grow up as sons of a noble.

Orphaned young girl with a special destiny and will of steel finds out she's a not-princess due to inherit a throne.

Wiser, older level-headed not-dwarf/not-gnome shaman dualgendered science expert tries repeatedly and unsuccessfully to produce a child.

Short-tempered, physically powerful fire mage marries orphaned young girl who's a not-princess and finds himself simultaneously attracted and repulsed by her strong will and intelligent bearing.

Twins' mother is evil bitch-incarnate looking out only for her own power and the boys are mostly tools on her climb up the celestial ladder. She also won't admit most of their existence is her fault.

Self-absorbed son of a duke tries to get into not-princesses panties mulitple times. Ignores fact she's married and not interested in him.

Evil bitch tries to mind control not-princess's father to gain more influence over her elder twin. Elder twin breaks mind control. Not-princess not happy.

Younger twin gets a little too busy. Fathers five children in the span of one month. Oops.

Elder twin finds out that his father isn't his father. Younger twin gets pissed at evil bitch mother.

Younger twin uses older twin to fix mistake made by evil bitch mother.

Mage people decide not-princess is too good at what she does and unseat her. She tells them to go to hell.

Evil bitch mother attempts to kill elder twin. Fails. Kills younger twin instead. Double oops.

Elder twin's regency ends when he is executed for an atrocity he witnessed but did not commit.

Younger twin is ressurected by not-princess at behest of evil bitch. Karma chargeback is huge.

Elder twin returns to life when the gods drag him out of heaven. He begrudgingly takes up violence again.

... drat, now I can't remember if I was or wasn't trying to be original ...

February 05, 2009

Ante Mortis

Year 37: I remember crying a lot the days after Dad died. It came so suddenly and unexpectedly that shock itself seem to take a day to set in. It was almost as if I was reliving his days as a young graduate. A new sheepskin, a new child, a new job, and suddenly my father was gone.

His dying breaths were said in a language I barely knew. Uncle Morgan understood them, but he couldn't talk lucidly afterwards. My uncle did not cry loudly or demonstratively. Tears fell on a blank face as he held my father closely and listened to him die. I can only guess that my uncle felt helpless. The family nurse declared my father dead and Georg had to coax Uncle Morgan to let him go.

Uncle Morgan stumbled into a wall as he tried to feel his way out of the room. We should have been surprised, but everyone was focused on Dad. I think the whole situation was too weird and the death pushed it into the realm of unreal. Humans deal with death by seeking out comfort, but after several days of not seeing my uncle, I went to his rooms, hoping to offer solace and some companionate comfort. I found out while my sister, my stepmother and other siblings had been crying together and commiserating, he'd moved forward with my father's wishes on how to be buried and started executing his will. Georg and Mr. Shay, the family lawyer, said his tears never ceased during the entire seven days before the funeral. I went to his sitting room.

My uncle is a tall man with an imposing presence. It was hard to think of him as disabled when he was calm and sane. He sat in his chair, straight and proper, but his face seemed hollow and pale. Tears were still falling from his eyes. A light meal sat on the table next to him, barely touched. I waited for him to acknowledge my presence like he always had. He said nothing. He sat blindly staring, not moving.

I cleared my throat. He startled at the sound. “Uncle Morgan?” I tried to speak softly.

“Ah, Nicole...” his voice sounded hollow, too. “I am sorry.”

He aimlessly flexed his hand and I noticed the wound had become infected and was oozing. Georg said from behind me, “Leave him be. He's handling this as best he can. Don't expect him to live well after this.”

“He doesn't look like ... healthy.”

“Well, he can be shut up in this suite and forgotten now. His spirit and life are dead.”

“That's rather mean.”

“I don't want to sound mean, but he's a fey twin without his soul mate.”

I wanted to say something, but I couldn't find the words to what I was thinking. I felt I should've known what he was talking about, but didn't. Georg, in his healer's way, continued, “Let me explain. Human twins are close, and bond closely, but fey twins bond at conception. They pair off for life as emotionally linked soul mates. The bond is far stronger than any other relationship I know. Their roles are defined at birth. The firstborn is the guardian. The secondborn is the dominant. Morgan's biological imperative is to protect his brother at all costs. Normally, most likely from the stress of the role, the guardian is usually the first to be taken by death. It is unusual, and some surviving guardians say it feels unnatural, for the guardian to outlive the dominant. Very often, the guardian will die of grief and self-neglect shortly after. Morgan has to deal with an unnatural situation compounded by the lack of any hope of the 'making up' of their souls in the afterlife. He will live out his existence feeling incomplete from here on.”

I thought I was sad and depressed before I heard that...

February 04, 2009

Status Normal

“It feels like forever since you asked me to join you on a mission.”

“Four weeks is not forever.”

“I'm calcualating in all your away time.”

“Three months is still not forever.”

“So where are we going?”

“A gnomish temple to their god of mechanics.”

“A temple complex? Is your target their high priest?”

“No, their temple has a guardian.”

“... not entirely unexpected...”

“Khael wants the guardian.”

“Is he nuts?!”

“He's a mage. He figures fetch missions would be simpler than just killing people. He pays well enough for me not to correct that assumption.”

As the underground area widened, Michael squinted in the faint luminescence. “I think I see something ahead that could qualify as a temple.”

Morgan placed a hand against his brother's chest and pressed his ear to the tunnel wall. After a several minutes passed, he quietly said, “I sense something large ahead, but it's not registering a will.”

Michael frowned. “A golem, perhaps?”

Morgan groaned. Automatons were tricky. Besides minimal damage, there was little he could do against them. And he needed to bring it back intact. Voices bubbled in his head. Some were real, offering suggestions. Some were hallucinations, attempting distractions. Mother's contribution was a suggestion he give up. Tactical decisions could probably be made quicker if he had any peace and quiet in his mind.

“Morgan?” Michael prompted.

Morgan attempted to focus on Michael's mind. It was present and far more aware of the situation than the wash of voices in his head. He rubbed his forehead. “I'm trying to decide how to deal with this.”

Michael took his brother's elbow and walked towards the temple. “How about we ask them to trade for the guardian?”

“That might work if it's still actively maintained.”

“From its appearance, I'm going to presume it is.”

The two men continued forward silently until Morgan suddenly pitched forward onto his knees and grasped his head. His mouth gurgled. Michael caught him up and pinned his arms. Morgan thrashed uncontrollably while howling. Michael patiently waited out the cataleptic seizure. Afterwards, he carefully let all the vomitus drain before laying him flat and placing Morgan's head in his lap. Morgan exihibited waxy flexibility.

Michael started the ten-minute long cantation to take them someplace safer. Around the four minute mark, he realized a group of gnomes were staring at him. He kept his mind focused and despite their insistence on an explanation of why the were there, they soon were in the glade by the cabin on Scafira.

Hours later, Morgan showed signs of awareness. Michael patiently coaxed him toward normal functioning and, after another two days, he became reactive, then verbal.

“So,” he said, while combing out Morgan's hair, “do you have fits often when on mission?”

“N-no, not often... but sometimes.” Morgan still sounded throaty and dry. His mind also still seemed distracted, as if it took effort to form the words from thoughts.

“That isn't reassuring. You shouldn't be doing this if you risk...”

“Does not... really matter.”

“Does what I feel matter? Morgan, when you die, I feel like I've been ripped apart. Has dying become such a habit that you've gotten blasé about it? I haven't. I don't want you to be hurting and I don't like your catatonic moments, but I never considered that you had them while away and that's magnitude's worse.”

“Life... has to go on... it never ends... never stops... so I go...“

Michael suddenly hugged his brother and tears moistened Morgan's hair. “Just because death is temporary for you does not make it hurt any less for me.”

“Damned... emotive.. link..”

“No. Don't damn the most precious thing we have. Our lives are deep and meaningful and this...” Michael tapped a fingertip on Morgan's third eye. “... means the most of all. Would you prefer to live without me?”

“Never!” Morgan quickly responded with the grace of Frankenstein's monster. Michael heard the sincerity through the monstrous rasp.

“Then value your life as I value it and I will treasure myself as you treasure me.”

February 03, 2009

From the Ashes Arises a Song

It was a humid night and the city street seemed to hum with barely contained violence. Some racial epithets from the locals hit his ears, but he paid them little mind. Race was not a concern to him anymore. He didn't even share the same species with those illiterate poseurs. He tasted the air with his extra sense. She was near.

The whole universe had shifted a degree. Few noticed here. Probably, it was for the best. As the city continued its doldrums, he suddenly started singing. A soul long thought dead and buried, thought of as only a shade that whimpered occasionally, now rose to life and resurged anew, free of its fetters and constrictive promises, free of its repressive duties and confining trammels. When his song ended, he sensed potential in his life for the first time in... in a time so long passed he cannot remember being hopeful before. He suddenly became aware of her mind in the vicinity. She was happy. Possibly happy to see him.

“Valerie,” he softly breathed. She exuberantly hugged him.

“Morgan, you came for me!”

“Yes,” he said softly, smiling broadly. “I did.”

He carefully slipped his arms around her. They held each other for a long moment. She asked, “I wish my accommodations here were better but...”

“If you wish better, my home has five bedrooms and I currently live there with two young girls. It could use the presence of a woman.”

“As long as you don't lock me away in a tower, it sounds wonderful to me.”

“It doesn't have a tower, it is just a big house in Weehauken.”

“Then, onwards, to the horizon.”

As the city hummed on, they disappeared into the night.

February 02, 2009

Finesse Oblige

AC: “Morgan?”

Morgan stood up and turned around and so his body was facing his brother. “Yes, Your Grace?”

“Oh, come off it!” Michael's annoyance was tinged with amusement. He switched back to his business modulation. “I want you to learn how to fight.”

“I hardly see the necessity.”

“Maybe I want to question potential assassins rather then have their brain matter scraped off the audience hall floor.”

“I will aim lower,” Morgan remarked, resuming his previous lounging position.

“Well, that's the main problem, your aim. You really can't see your targets, just their thoughts, so you aim for their head.”

“When the room is crowded, it is the easiest way. The other advantage is my mindcrafted weapons are unconfiscatable.”

“Yes, well, incapacitation might be another option. The room is marble lined. I can block attacks on my own.”

“I suppose the added intimidation factor has occurred to you?”

“Yes, if pressed, I could see where one shot would be impressive, especially since you are legally blind, but I don't want people to be afraid to approach me.”

“And if we are not in your marble-lined audience chamber?”

“Morgan, if you kill every last one of them...”

“My wife can do wonders with corpses and truth.”

“... when did you get so...”

“Pragmatic?”

“...bloodthirsty?”

“I had born a certain unease at my proficiency, and my enthusiasm of same, for many years. Then, I found that I am, by my father, an inherent predator. I desire to hunt and kill on instinct. The Order must have realized it and honed me to use it to my advantage.”

“Your father is...”

“My father was a bluthungri, making me the apexa for the th'epf. I.. dislodged him from his position as alpha male.”

“The apexis council didn't sense you.”

“I am not one of the lesser races. I am at the level of primal ascendents.”

“You ascended?”

“This is immaterial to the matter you brought before me. I will restrain myself better in protecting you. I can make no promises as passion, and not duty, are my reasons for taking this role now.”

“Thank you, Morgan. Good day, then.”

February 01, 2009

Peaceful Interlude

Precedent: Be Careful What You Search For

Valerie and Morgan glided across the empty room together, dancing a waltz to the music in Morgan's portable CD player. The calm, graceful steps were a welcome relief from his usual life and a welcome distraction from her ennui. The universe melted away and the steps became the focal point of their minds. A few drams of liquor let Morgan's mind be free of any insistent voices or eavesdropping. The conversation between them was the tacit language of the body and tempo. A calm expression graced his visage. He could sense Valerie's smile.

As the music faded, their bodies relaxed away, then stepped closer for a tango. Both had grown isolated in their current political states. Valerie had been practically locked away in an ivory tower because and despite her immense power. Morgan, well, he was who he was and, outside of his brother, he was usually alone, aloof, and badly misunderstood when not straitjacketed and drugged into sopor. The graceful airs were atypical of both, though one might guess otherwise at first glance.

When the set of dances was over, he sat on a bench with her leaning on him, holding his hand. He pulled out a flask and sipped from it to ensure the relative quiet continued. They withdrew to her tea room. She talked with her usual exuberance and he told her as much as he could about what was going on back home. As she drew closer, he felt a twinge in his mind. At first, it was merely an annoyance, but as he lifted his flask to his lips, he recognized the sender.

“I'm apologize, Val, but my brother needs me.”

He quickly stood and shrugged his cloak about him. His re-emergence was right behind his brother as a large, roc-sized creature was diving at him. Michael's back slammed into Morgan's front. Morgan reflexively put up a wall about them and collected his brother into his arms. A resounding slam came from the edge of the manifested wall. Michael turned and pressed himself full against Morgan's body. A cold thrill went through him and he was suddenly aware of tile beneath his feet.

Michael proceeded to slide down Morgan's body until he was sitting on the floor. Morgan knelt down beside him. “Are you injured?”

“No,” Michael answered, shaking mildly from the encounter. “Sorry to have disrupted your sleep.”

“You have nothing for which to apologize on that account. I was not asleep.”

“You were very serene?”

“Yes,” Morgan said, smiling. “I was.” He walked away without further explanation.